Why am I feeling this way?
Let me ask you, is it normal to think about ending yourself, committing suicide? Maybe you'll say, no, it's not. Loneliness kills me. I can't handle problems. I have a lot of anxieties. I can always remember what my Psychology teacher said, that there is really something wrong with me. Well, of course I believe I'm not insane. It's just that I always think of ending my life whenever I'm alone and my mind is loaded with problems, lots of problems.
But I am doing my best not to think about it. I always mingle with my friends even if I don't feel it. It's just that I can't help it. I really don't know how long can handle this thoughts and not do acts that will devastate me. I'm still hopeful that as I get more mature, all this thoughts will be buried into the deepest pocket in my memory and whenever I'll remember it, I'll just laugh about it.
Let me ask you, is it normal to think about ending yourself, committing suicide? Maybe you'll say, no, it's not. Loneliness kills me. I can't handle problems. I have a lot of anxieties. I can always remember what my Psychology teacher said, that there is really something wrong with me. Well, of course I believe I'm not insane. It's just that I always think of ending my life whenever I'm alone and my mind is loaded with problems, lots of problems.
But I am doing my best not to think about it. I always mingle with my friends even if I don't feel it. It's just that I can't help it. I really don't know how long can handle this thoughts and not do acts that will devastate me. I'm still hopeful that as I get more mature, all this thoughts will be buried into the deepest pocket in my memory and whenever I'll remember it, I'll just laugh about it.
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